Guys, as you probably know my anxiety has settled down a lot recently but I feel like I’m going to be sick..
Right as you may know, I’m scared of loud noises and I feel like a wreck whenever I’m even in the same street as a balloon. It makes me panic so much and I can’t deal with it.
So tomorrow, in Physics, we are going to be using air rifles to see the speed of sound. And I am dreading it so much and my hands are just shaking with the thought of seeing and hearing the gun go off.
I know loads of people in this blogging community have anxiety and have loads of panic attacks. You might not understand this but I’m scared that I am going to have a panic attack in front of the whole class. I just can’t deal with everyone staring at me and wondering what the hell is happening. I’ve had this before and I hate it when people ask me about it and I hate talking about it..it just makes me feel odd and weird.
The thing is I told my physics teacher about not liking loud noises and he said that he will put me the furthest away from it than anyone but I don’t think he understands that I don’t want to be on the field, I don’t want people asking questions. I just want to be inside safe and away from everyone else.
I can’t deal with another bad day. Omg, I don’t want to start getting panicky again, my life was so much easier when I avoided things like this. Should I just bunk off but I have to get good grades..
I just know I’m going to have a panic attack tomorrow…
Everyone at school and home just don’t understand what it’s like. They just think I’m trying to get attention or I’m just really dim headed.
I’m so so so so so scared..
Has anyone got any tips or something?