Hi,everyone! I’m trying to get my crap together but however much I try, it seems to break me on the inside but I’m still smiling. Sometimes, I find myself having a forced smile that makes me look like I’ve gotten facial injections.
It’s complicated to explain how I feel at the moment. Some parts of the day is really good and I can’t stop laughing but others, I’m panicked and paranoid about what’s going to happen next. I just feel something missing sorta a bit like this Lily Allen song *she’s my spirit animal*
However, there’s one thing that I’m very happy and proud about today. I had a business studies presentation to do and well, I was so nervous but somehow I got through it sounding confident and well not stuttering so that’s something 🙂
Tomorrow, I’m going to be ‘officially’ meeting Carlo’s parents which I’m nervous about like I’m shaking thinking about it right now. I’ve met them before but it was very awkward and well, I’m scared they don’t like me. I can’t really avoid it now as his parents aren’t letting him come around on Sunday unless if I see them tomorrow. I’m pretty impressed in how clever that idea was to be fair.
On Sunday, I’m going to be inviting my friends and Carlos around to decorate my Christmas tree and afterwards, watching a very seasonal film which I haven’t yet decided on. I’m really looking forward to it :))
I haven’t got any homework this weekend but I need to carry on revising because well, I’m kinda failing at Physics and Biology, whoops.
School stress has been getting to me a little and I had a massive panic attack while my parents were out so I’m going to try and take it easy this weekend but still revise.
Anyway, I’ll see you this weekend 🙂
Hideaway Girl xxx