Dear readers, let me give you a piece of advice.
Your friends can be the most important people in your life and never let them go. It’s a mistake I have made so many countless times in my life and this summer all of it has come back and smacked it in my face.
Some friends just somehow went farther apart slowly but still are friends, just not as close. Some friends broke off with a bang and haven’t reappeared again. Some friends got new friends or replaced you with someone they love; sometimes quick, sometimes slow but a sure process.
Maybe I did the last one to one or two people but I never wanted to not see them, I was just busy but I always had time for those certain friends but even they have moved on with different friends and their boyfriends.
I see adults saying about how you lose friends and it can be worse than a breakup (I never believed that), I understand that because with boy/girlfriends, you know when you aren’t a thing anymore but with friends, you only have to wait or see to find out the truth that most don’t want to have. Friends can be so much more important than your significant other, they are your other half.
I’m lonely. I really am and I’m scared about going to school because it’s going to fell 100x worse because you’ll see them with new friends and fuck, it hurts so bad. I have friends but this consists of a boyfriend and boy friends but I don’t have that girl best friend anymore… she might think we are but it’s so plain obvious to everyone else that we are no more. We aren’t. Best friends are the ones who you can tell everything to, who you never get bored of seeing, who you just look at you and you know what they are thinking and that comfortable silence. We don’t have that anymore.
Getting immensely jealous of people with those friends is growing and growing by the day, they just don’t know how lucky they/you are. You’re so lucky and I hope you know that.
Keep your best friend no matter what. Yes delete the ones who make you feel shit but keep the ones who you bloody love.
aka Hideaway Girl xxx