The old me who was 14 years old (soon turning 15, how exciting!) At the moment, you think your life is normal (maybe, a bit dramatic or boring).. wait until a years time. It’s fucking shit at the moment.
Yeah, I’m going to Paris next week which 2 weeks ago, I was really really excited about but now, it’s ruined already and I don’t want to go, I rather just be in this boring little town than pretending everything is okay because it’s not and I’m not going to pretend like everyone else.
I’m so stressed and I know people are going to say:
It was get better
Talk to someone
Or just plainly, I hope you’re alright and that it gets better
It’s nice to know people are thinking about me and everything, but god, it doesn’t help at all. I just want someone to sort it out or get rid of it.
I’ve tried to speak to someone but they can’t help me, they basically told me that.
So, I just want to be left alone from the people who pretend and try to concentrate on school work. School work is the only thing that really helps me to keep to my routine. I repeat this routine every night and it comforts me because it hasn’t changed unlike a lot of other things.
However, when people disturb this routine only slightly, I want to shout at them and throw shit at them because they don’t care, they want to pretend everything is okay.
So Astrid, make the most of this year that you’ve got. Go a little crazy and don’t stick to the routine because you will find yourself stuck in it.
However, don’t get pushed around people and their masks. You will soon find out what’s behind their masks and how god awful it is