Life is busy at the moment. However, nothing has really gotten better but distracting myself with big tasks has really made me look forward to things. For example, the amnesty international group is coming along nicely and we are getting ready to start promoting it. The school Christmas fete is taking place in two weeks time and we’re organising a secondhand book sale to raise money for Amnesty but also, promote the school youth club and try to get new members.
I enjoy having control over something like Amnesty and this blog. In a lot of my aspects in my life, I can’t control much and this gives me a bit of a boost in my ego haha. I’ve made a new friend at Amnesty which is cool as it’s nice to just have that friendly conversation and be able to feel wanted in the conversation.
The promise of a future is what is keeping me going as well. Thinking about starting a new life after school, makes me determined to get good grades, to get out of this small town and get on with life. This town is getting too small for me now and I want to go to the City where I can decide what to do with my life.
It’s exciting and getting older is terrifying to think about for me at the moment but I know that when I get there, I will be enjoying the independence but also freaking about responsibilities.
Due to friendships right now, I’m not bothering to try to sort any lost friendships right now. I guess the other person didn’t want to hold on to it and she also had a chance to tell me why she hated me, but she just replied with a lame mumble of ‘it’s no big deal.’. What? haha, that makes no sense as she didn’t bother speaking to me for a month so (apparently) that’s no big deal.
Anyways, maybe it is time for me to just forget about that past friendship as in a year, we would have moved on to different sixth forms with different futures ahead of us. Who cares, right? We got to look forward to those years and forget about those relationships but look back at the memories and smile,