losing grandad

Yesterday, I tried to write a blog post about what had been going on in my life. However, I stopped midway through because it was getting too difficult and I wasn’t completely ready to go back to blogging.

Sadly last night, my grandad died after being in a coma for a few days as he fell while in Winchester. It’s still a shock to me and I haven’t cried about it yet which is something I feel extremely guilty about as he was my step grandad and he supported me as a grandad since I was born.

My biological grandad died when my mother was young and my step grandad (Arthur) was married to my nan a long time before I was born. Even when I was little, I thought Arthur was my real grandad until I found out about my mum’s dad and came to understand about steps and that.

However, I do have another grandad which is my father’s father but he doesn’t see me very often and I don’t think he really knows who I am as a person. Arthur did in a lot of ways. He knew what I was up to at school, helped me with a few school projects, met my ex-boyfriend and spent many Christmases with me. He spent time and effort to me and he treated me like a granddaughter and I was so lucky to have such a happy person in my life.

He was so lively and young for his age that you would think he was a quite a bit younger. You could tell he enjoyed life with his singing and jokes even though they weren’t very funny sometimes haha.

I think everything is getting a bit too much for me now with this situation and breaking up with my long-term boyfriend. It’s difficult to have this much stuff going on in my life and be juggling my mocks. It’s so so so hard.

I don’t really want to go into large depth about my grandad yet because it still hasn’t sunk in but I hope you all have a lovely weekend,

Astrid X

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14 Comments

  1. Chloe Lauren

    I’m so sorry to hear this. My nan passed away just after Christmas last year whilst in hospital. Similar situation. She fell in the hospital and suffered a stroke, 4 days later she was gone. I just want to let you know that I understand what you are going through. If you need someone to speak to I a here for you. It’s not easy losing someone you care about. My nan was like my best friend so I truly do get it. Please, if there is anything you need help with, just contact me! You can get through this. It may not be easy but things will be ok!

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  2. Curly Blogger

    Hello there,
    I just came across your blog and I am so sorry to hear about what you’re going through. I know what is happening to you must be overwhelmingly painful so if there’s anything I can do to try and support you a little, do let me know. From what I can tell, he has an amazing, incredibly strong granddaughter and I’m sure he’d be incredibly proud of you.

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  3. Esther

    Sorry about the loss babe ❤❤

    Sending hugs your way…and that the Lord comforts you. Feel free to take as much time as you need from b the blog-o-sphere, or you can decide to come here as an escape. Take care sweetie.

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  4. mymindspeaksaloud

    I’m sorry about your granddad, that really sucks😞 I lost my granny over summer, after she had been in hospital for over a week (she had Alzheimer’s) and I also felt a bit like you for a while – guilty that I didn’t cry straight away – but I think it’s normal to be in a bit of a shock. Sometimes when you’re not constantly around someone it doesn’t seem like they’re actually gone but then it kind of sinks in after a while. I hope you’re okay and coping with it all x

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  5. Gianna

    I’m so sorry about your grandad, that really hope you get through this!! You might not be ready to say goodbye to your grandad, and that’s okay. It’ll take some time to comprehend, so as you take the time to do that just take a break and don’t overwork yourself.
    Sending lots of love, stay strong!

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  6. Lorelie Joy

    May he rest in peace. It sounds like you’re going through a lot right now, though I can’t do much but share the pain with you. Things will get better even if it feels like the world has come to a halt. I think right now, just focus on you. Take care of yourself, eat properly and drink plenty of water. Sending you lots of love xxx

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  7. Ana Regina

    It’s so sad to hear that, I’m so sorry about your grandad, it’s good to hear he was a good person and he was a part of your life.
    And omg I can’t even imagine how it must be to have broken up with your boyfriend and then you lost your grandad and then having to study for mocks, GOOD LUCK, I’m pretty sure they’re gonna turn out great!!!! 🙂

    My condolences again and wish you the best of luck!!! ❤

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