Sixth form already has helped me to discover myself in a new and good way. It sounds cheesy and cringy but it’s true. At my last school, where I had people who known me through all my embarrassing stages of tween life, I began to feel disconnected from myself. The relentless comments in class about my ex boyfriends, my views and my appearance began to take a toll on my confidence. It had such a big affect that I started to recognise myself as how people described me which was that I was useless, ugly and unintelligent.
But the moment sixth form started, I have just blossomed in my mental health. I’m able to communicate to strangers easily in classes and by the end of that period, I would be laughing with them. I’m able to look at myself in bathroom mirror in the morning and think ‘yeah you look actually alright’. I’m able to think about my results and look forward to my lessons (which is probably the most geeky thing). And to top the geeky things, I’ve joined three clubs: Model UN club, Amnesty International and a history club. I don’t know if I will do them all year but it’s good to try something new.
Before I began my first week at Sixth Form, my main worry was what would happen if my teachers are shit. But after meeting all of them apart from one psychology teacher, I have a feeling that they are going to support us even more than GCSE level. It’s like amazing how we can do the subjects we enjoy now like doing psychology, sociology and law is literally my heaven. Well saying that, the moment exams start, I will be saying it’s my deepest reddest hell.
As all of my subjects are in social sciences, I’m like in the same building for all of them which is like bonus but also I have 24 frees per fortnight!! That’s like insane. It’s so good that I went home 2 hours early because I only had psychology for one period so I got to miss all the annoying little children on the bus.
Next week though, the teachers are going to pile it on us. I can feel it. I don’t think I’m ready to go back to studying yet. 10 weeks of doing shit was boring but then, I’m in a pattern of not doing anything. But we’ll cross that hurdle when we get to it.
Right, I’m going to go as I need to get ready for this party but I hope you’ve all had a good first days back at school. Next week, I’m going to make a study with me or something along that lines to just get in the pattern of productivity.